It has been seven long months since I last dared peek at this blog. These seven months have been a trial by fire for me and my family. We have hit lows I never thought possible but also have seen God work and provide in ways I never imagined.
In December my husband lost his job.
Words escape me. I can't even begin to convey to you what life has been like. We have had moments of total despair and moments of unspeakable gratitude. We have had to humble ourselves and ask help from family. Yet we've also seen God work in mysterious ways and somehow pay off our medical bills from the boys' births.
My dream of coming home full time at the moment seems impossible.
Earlier this month I found out that my part time position in a social service agency will be no more due to a budget cut. However, a new position has been made known to me but it is full time with some travel. It comes with benefits and since my husband's temp job pays very little and has no benefits this full time position for me seems to be the only way.
Have you experienced times of complete heart ache? I have been praying for almost two years that I would be able to come home full time and at one point we really thought it was going to happen. Then everything fell apart. I'm beginning to identify with Job minus losing my children (which I pray will never happen). Why is life so hard? Why do we live in a fallen world?
I have prayed that God will make His will my heart's desire.
Romans 5:6 says "You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly."
At just the right time. I know God will provide for us at just the right time. His timing is perfect.
As of this moment, I don't know what my future holds. I have until the end of June with my current part time job. I know that if God's will for me is to be home full time He will provide at just the right time. And if His will is for me to wait a while longer then I know at just the right time He will provide. I'm living by faith alone. And I am so thankful that my faith is in the one who created the Heavens and the Earth.
Has anyone else went through an unbearable trial? What brought you through?
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