At Just the Right Time

It has been seven long months since I last dared peek at this blog. These seven months have been a trial by fire for me and my family. We have hit lows I never thought possible but also have seen God work and provide in ways I never imagined.

In December my husband lost his job.

Words escape me. I can't even begin to convey to you what life has been like. We have had moments of total despair and moments of unspeakable gratitude. We have had to humble ourselves and ask help from family. Yet we've also seen God work in mysterious ways and somehow pay off our medical bills from the boys' births.

My dream of coming home full time at the moment seems impossible.

Earlier this month I found out that my part time position in a social service agency will be no more due to a budget cut. However, a new position has been made known to me but it is full time with some travel.  It comes with benefits and since my husband's temp job pays very little and has no benefits this full time position for me seems to be the only way.

Have you experienced times of complete heart ache? I have been praying for almost two years that I would be able to come home full time and at one point we really thought it was going to happen. Then everything fell apart. I'm beginning to identify with Job minus losing my children (which I pray will never happen). Why is life so hard? Why do we live in a fallen world?

I have prayed that God will make His will my heart's desire.

Romans 5:6 says "You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly."

At just the right time. I know God will provide for us at just the right time. His timing is perfect.

As of this moment, I don't know what my future holds. I have until the end of June with my current part time job. I know that if God's will for me is to be home full time He will provide at just the right time. And if His will is for me to wait a while longer then I know at just the right time He will provide. I'm living by faith alone. And I am so thankful that my faith is in the one who created the Heavens and the Earth.

Has anyone else went through an unbearable trial? What brought you through?

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Busy being a Mommy

 

I promise I am still very much alive.  It has been quite some time since I last posted anything.  I promise, I do have a very good excuse.  I've been busy being a mommy. 

 

Parenting two little boys is definitley different from parenting one little boy.  When I finally think I have a moment to myself one of the boys figures it out and comes running or starts crying.  Even the BATHROOM isn't off limits!!!

 

But you know what... I LOVE IT!  Every single moment is full of joy.  Even those moments when I want to hide under the covers and scream I find joy.  My two fussy, cranky, precious, happy, funny, adventurous little boys are true blessings from the Lord.  

 

So all of that to say, I have not had time to write lately and my number one priority after God is my husband and babes.  In addition, my computer has recently passed on and trying to post from my iphone is too difficult for my limited technological ability.  So hopefully in the future there will be more time to share my heart and story with you.   

 

I do want to leave you with just one thought...

 

God is really working on me right now.  Recently my 20 hours of work a week was cut down to just 10.  Financially we are very strained and my husband is looking for a second job to ease the burden.  We are definitely in a season of waiting.  Waiting is hard.  There's no other way to describe it.  Please be in prayer for us that we will seek God with all of our heart and be able to discern His word.  And also that we will be an example to our children of those who wait on the Lord.  We want our lives to reflect Christ to them.